Friday, October 26, 2012

It's finally friday...



Yes it's Friday, but for people like me who work weekends technically today is my Thursday.  Don't let me rain on your parade, as I am quite happy for you that you now get two days off in a row.  :)

I am currently sitting at my kitchen island, eating some Yo plait light, and staring out the window.  Yesterday it was like summer: breezy, sunny, hot.  Today the weather is acting more as it should to my dismay.  It's fing freezing out and rain clouds are threatening my existence lol. 

I have to go to work tonight and I really have no desire to.  I have a bazillion things that I should be doing right now but I have zero motivation to do them. 

I wonder what my next step should be here. 

Let's just say again, that this whole process that I'm starting to go through is ultimately to make myself a better person.  I've made my share of mistakes in my life, and I have tons of regrets.  There are situations and people that I've hurt, I never want to go through that again. 

So, as of 10-22-12, I have been smoke-free for a month.  The next thing that I believe should be focused on is exercise.  I have a great relationship and healthy respect for the gym: never go near it and it can't break you, lol.  I have had a gym membership for about a month now.  I have participated once.  Ha.

Let me give you a little background here....

I am 5'8'', live a pretty sedentary lifestyle, and I'm Native American....
The list of issues that we can have or develop is huge and not pretty, hello diabetes!  Also, for some strange reason, the majority of my body weight is carried from the waist up.  My legs are pretty meaty, but that's muscle for you.  I also have a bad knee which is another reason why I am leery about fully committing to the gym.

So anyways, I did some research and here's what I need to do to lose that upper body weight:

30 minutes of aerobic activity at least 5 days a week
Strength training 3-4 days a week preferably 3 sets of 8-12 reps for each activity I do
*Recommends yoga as strength training for women so we don't "bulk" up.

Cut out excess fat, saturated fat, and sugar.  (bad)
Lean protein, fruits, vegetables, and whole grains (good)
Drink lots of H2O

I recently had a mid-life crisis yesterday when I googled the amount of calories in a half a stick of butter.  Do it, I dare you.......................did you see???  Yea, I crapped my pants too.

Anyways we'll talk more about dieting on the next step.  I am going to make a workout schedule on Google Calendar now and hopefully on Monday....I...WILL....go....to....the.....gym....ugh.  :)

Saturday, October 20, 2012

Smoking.....

So I have this list that is basically the road map for this journey here that I am taking.  At the end of this journey I hope to have conquered a lot of the things that I've been afraid to do, and possibly be one step closer to my dream: becoming a country music singer.

The first thing that I put on the top of my list was smoking.  It seemed like the most logical place to begin.  If
I continued smoking my voice would continue to deteriorate and so would my health.  Quitting smoking would be the stepping stone to exercising and also would allow me to improve my vocal range and get it back to where it used to be.

I have been a smoker all my life.  I started when I was about 14 years old.  I do not recommend this.  I didn't start smoking hard core until my early twenties when I would smoke sometimes at karaoke.  Then finally, when I got married my ex-husband was a smoker and I soon followed suit and have been doing it ever since. 

I never truly thought that I was addicted to the nicotine, I was just addicted to always needing to have something in my hand.  So whether I was driving, talking, going on break at work, yada, yada, I would crave a cigarette. 

Now I have to admit that some of the most thoughtful and kind people in the world are smokers.  They're not trying to hurt anyone, they just want their cigarette and to be left alone.  However, these are also the people that will try to break you the most if you're trying to quit, lol.  They always have advice for you, and are always willing to let you bum one, if YOU decide. 

I was finally able to quit (it will be a month in two days) because I got sick.  I couldn't hardly breathe and cigarettes were not aiding in my battle for oxygen.  So after a few days, I didn't have the cravings anymore.  It gets easier every day.  I feel so much better and I don't ever want to go back to feeling how I did when I smoked. 

My skin looks better, my clothes don't smell anymore, I have more energy, and hey I CAN BREATHE AGAIN! Lol. 

I finally was able to quit because I wanted it, not because other people said that I should.  I had wanted to quit smoking for years to make other people proud.  But it never worked because I myself wasn't behind it 100%.  You have to want it for YOU, and no one else.  I thoroughly enjoyed smoking and never in a million years thought that I would ever quit.  But I actually suprised myself.  You can do it too, I believe in you :)

Friday, October 5, 2012

Hi I'm Krista :)




Someone once said that to write well, you have to write what you know.....

So this is what I know:

My name is Krista, I live in one of the most beautiful places in the world: Northen Michigan.  I am 28 years old and I am a freshman in college.  (I know, weird right?) I feel that I have alot I could offer to the world if people just listen, if they don't it's their choice. 

I've had alot of things happen in my life that have led to me being extremely independent, guarded in my feelings, fast in my assumptions and judgements, and very very cautious about most things. 

I believe in the power of improvement.  I try everyday to discover new ways to make things better or easier. 

I have a lyrical soul, and music is my salvation.  I believe in karma and try to live my life that way.  I'm a Christian, and I feel insecure about 50 percent of the time in anything that I do.

I'm trying my best to change, to make myself better, to be successful, to make people proud, to deal with my demons, to be a better person......

Chasing Nashville will document my journey to get there every step of the way......